So to carry on where I left off, I am in constant pain now and only ever comfortable when lying down. This makes me bad tempered and irritable. When I go out for a walk in the streets, I begin with a positive state of mind, but within minutes I am resenting anyone who gets in my way because I can no longer change direction quickly. Everyone seems to walk around using their phone and peripheral vision, not noticing obstructions until they force me to come to a dead stop.
Loud noises - ambulance sirens, the air brakes on lorries and busses etc. - are sometimes verging on unbearable. I sometimes have to leave cafes because I cannot bear listening to other people's conversations - especially if they are through the loudspeaker of a mobile phone. Amplified buskers drive me nuts - especially if they are playing crap music. I went on a one-hour river cruise through the countryside a few weeks ago and it was peaceful and calming until one of the crew began a monotonous and banal commentary which lasted all the way out and all the way back. The speaker was right above my head.
I enjoy sitting outside in town with a coffee just watching passers-by, but after a while everyone begins to look freakish and unattractive. I notice more and more obese men, women and children and my heart sinks until I have to go back home to escape the visual overload.
On my occasional visits to the pub, I begin to enjoy the company after a couple of drinks and and a taste of Class-A drugs, but I am aware of the dangerous illusion and know it cannot last.
I love living in town but I would also love to have an escape hut in the countryside. Sitting under trees in a park is very soothing.
Ok, that is off my chest for another few years.
Bravo, all said. Pain is horrible but can be alleviated for a time. I can imagine Bath being very noisy and full of people you may not necessarily like. I doubt you are coming to the end rather it is 'Grumpy old Man day'
ReplyDeleteIt will go away believe me.
I am probably the same but strive to get physically better if I can. It feels like a losing battle sometimes. Everyone is obese and still eating more and I see them too.
ReplyDeleteAn escape hut in the countryside sounds ideal to me. A home in Bath and a countryside hut might just be the solution.
ReplyDeleteIf bones, muscles and joints are causing pain:
Tumeric is great for inflammation. Magnesium is good overall. Vit. B Complex carries all the B vitamins that help metabolize nutrients. Omega-3's and 6 Alaskan fish oil is also very good.
Almond butter (instead of peanut butter) provides calcium, key for bone health.
I need a new knee and it looks as though I have diabetes and all I want to do is sleep
ReplyDeleteI’m fucked
DeleteInsert inappropriate comment here.
DeleteOk. I'm buggered.
DeleteWe are the product of our youth, are we not? I told a young friend yesterday, my body is checking out, my mind still goes strong.
ReplyDeleteSorry, I haven't got the energy to respond to your comments, apart (and because of) from the one above.
ReplyDeleteHave you ever had your hearing checked? Because it sounds like tinnitus to me, and that is something that can be quite maddening.
ReplyDeleteDid you and Susan go to the same medical school?
DeleteNo. I know someone who suffers from it.
DeleteThink you may be on the spectrum Tom..do you think the older we get the more on the spectrum we get..is it old age spectrum?😉 Carol x
ReplyDeleteBeing in pain just makes everything horrible. I don't like to think of you being like that ..... did you shake it off and at least enjoy H.I's birthday celebrations ? I really hope so. Hope this finds you feeling a little better and more ' up '. Sending lots of love. XXXX
ReplyDeleteYes. I took some drugs for it. X
DeleteI love living in New York City, but as I grow older I begin to think it's time to move back to somewhere quieter in New England.
ReplyDeleteOh Tom, I feel ya. I am 59 and am going from being a gregarious human to one who can't handle noise, crowds, too many people. Constant pain makes me cranky and impatient, constant tinnitus adds to it. I AM ADHD, late diagnosis and I know there's a correlation, and being menopausal the whacko balance of hormones are a part of it too. Sending hugs.
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