Sunday, 4 September 2022

The wibbly-wobbly path of life


Ever since I complained (again) about people who apply comment moderation on their posts, a load more of you have switched it on. You should never tell people about what you disapprove of, it only encourages them. I should know that by now.

Thanks to a recommendation by an Instagram friend, I am now being followed by a top-end estate agent from London who is trying to sell me Number One, Grosvenor Place. It's very nice but a little out of my range. I hope my friend didn't big me up too much.

I am just about to embark on a forced regime of arriving at work at the same time as most other people do, and the weather is set to rain for the foreseeable future. I have to try and get myself into a positive state of mind, but I am having a little difficulty with that right now. I have lost self-confidence and - to a certain extent - self respect. I have anxiety dreams at night and I wake up feeling worried and unhappy, which is not good. The mild depression wears off throughout the day, but comes back by next morning.  I have come to believe that this negativity is a long-term side-effect of covid, as I know others in the same state. The current state of affairs doesn't help either. 

Oh well, time to stop complaining. This job should give me enough time to appreciate the season of mists and mellow fruitfulness (congratulations to whoever it was to pip me to the post with that one - can't remember) by shuffling through the dead leaves, mushroom hunting.

H.I. once made a painting of a picturesque path in the Botanical Gardens which I dubbed with the title of this post.

21 comments:

  1. Comment moderation and comments only from google accounts seem to avoid the problem of commentators being forced to comment anonymously. Blogger seems to keep changing its programs. I don't really understand it.

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    1. You just disallow comments from anonymous on the dashboard - unless you are a tart like John Gray who will accept comments from anyone.

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  2. I got tired of spammers so I put comment moderation on my blog. I like the photo.

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    1. Am I the only one who never gets spam? If I get a comment I don't like I just delete it. Easy. You can only block comments from people who follow you, though. Wise pains in the arse never follow.

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    2. Tom if you don't get spam, be grateful. It sucks and ruins everything, it can be unrelenting and it's really hard to find and delete.

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  3. The frequency of ill-behaved actions with intent, spam and scams are part of life. Unpleasant and ever present. Best to ignore it all.

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  4. You gave me the hint, Tom, that "comment moderation" might be on in my blog - and baffled I found out that almost all (almost , but not all - and that is a mystery to me too!) all comments were hidden in the function "commentaries", which I can reach only via "Design" and then "click".
    I do not want comment moderation - never wanted, and have no reason why I should. But what can I do to change it? There is no button which I have clicked, and for me visible nowhere "Comment moderation" is on. It started (I think) two months ago, and I would be glad, if I could change it.

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  5. Britta, go to Design, scroll down on left to Settings. Once in, scroll down to Comments. Tick Never on comment moderation. That will turn it off.

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    1. Thank you, Rachel - I will do it (but wonder: I had changed nothing in the last month - yet "it" changed). xxx

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    2. Blogger is messing about with all sorts of things right now.

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  6. I took your hint, well more than a hint, and switched comment moderations off, but when your last comment arrived it went into "spam". Sometimes you just can't win.

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    1. That os happening to many comments right now. We don't pay enough to expect Google to sort it out quickly.

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  7. Your penultimate paragraph gives you the clue, Tom. Follow that and try to enjoy the positives of life. (they are there if you look for them)

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  8. We think & feel things about ourselves that others think the complete opposite and, although I only know you from your blog, I always think you come across as a confident, intelligent, very skilful man and, my favourite part about you, your sense of humour but, I guess we all have our moments when we are unsure about ourselves. I don't even know if I have comment moderation switched on but don't think I have. Sending confidence and positivity vibes your way. XXXX

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    1. Thank you Jack@. You are a very kind person, but we knew that already.

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  9. "I have anxiety dreams at night and I wake up feeling worried and unhappy, which is not good. The mild depression wears off throughout the day, but comes back by next morning. I have come to believe that this negativity is a long-term side-effect of covid, as I know others in the same state."
    This morning I was in a hurry and read only the beginning of your post, Tom, sorry. I agree about the covid-effect - and I extend it even further:
    every time I got a vaccination - four times! - I had for every time about three months the same symptoms as you describe here - though I did not have the illness but just the vaccination!
    First the doctors said: "can't be" - I said: "But a vaccination is a mimicry of the illness, so..." Nowadays they found out that it can be.
    I was thankful when I got the vaccination. I was till then many years very fit, very healthy, never was depressed or tired to the bones - only for the time after those vaccinations. Always round about three months it took me to return to "normal" state.
    How long is your illness over? I wish you that you get strength and positivity soon back, Tom. (One thing I did was not listening to TV news anymore or reading newspapers - for a while, because then my mood tumbled). I did lots of walking, tried to sleep, (had horror dreams), first thing after such a morning alarm dream was drinking a strong coffee (I always was a tea-person) - that helped a bit, and I ate healthy, stopped even the 0,2l glass of wine in the evening.
    It will get better, Tom, will lighten up - that I am convinced of.
    A big hug and best wishes, Britta

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    1. Thank you Britta. Doctors know very little about long covid, whether strong or weak. I wondered if it was to do with age, but - like the people who complained about M.E. for years and were accused of laziness, I think I think it is both. There has been a lot of perfect storms recently.

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  10. I am also feeling this way. I am waiting for the Full Moon to change things for me.

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  11. I let them all comment and then delete them, that'll show em, lol
    Briony
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  12. I'm sorry to hear about your blues. I mean there's a lot going on that is not cheery. My current theory is that we all have things we do that give us moments of delight, which are like the spices that stop life being bland. And these are the things most screwed up by pandemia. We're out of whack. And that makes us feel out of sorts and a bit anxious and back footed. Well, I sure do. not fun eh <3

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