I'm off-centre. I'm out of kilter. I can no longer feel the rock under my feet.
Every day I work very hard to get back on track, but it's as though circumstances have shifted a little, and I somehow didn't notice it happen.
I'm not worried though. I never learnt to swim, but water has never scared me. Drowning scares me, but I'm not drowning.
I suddenly feel the need for another hard winter - 5 months before it's due.
I'm out of season.